It was nothing.

You’v emoved on, and I will too. We don’t talk anymore, I guess I should have seen it coming, and in a sense, I did see it coming. But I told myself “Who cares if you get hurt, have fun now”. I had fun. And I got hurt, go figure. You have her, and I will just move and keep looking for “him”. The “right guy”. I already knew it was going to be over before it even began. You know, not technically together, but there’s something there…thats what we had. But, it was fun while it lasted. No bitterness. No anger. Nothing. Because I didn’t feel much for you. When I would go to bed at night, you weren’t the thought racing through my head, you weren’t the dream that made me want to sleep in, you weren’t the phone call that gave me shivers, you weren’t anything really. Call me mean, I don’t care really. But, you’re nothing to me, it was nothing to me. It did confuse me, but it didn’t do much for me. Everyone told me “don’t do it, he’ll cheat, he’ll lie, etc., he’s a jerk. He’s probably not over his ex”. That was true. I realise that I was the rebound girl, and you were the rebound guy. Ahh well, we had a good run. Pce.

The appointment results

Well, as some of you know I went to the Doctor’s the other day for my heart and my stomach. They are still setting me up with a Cardiologist, but she said she was pretty concerned. They are having me wear a heart monitor/holster for two days and if in that time period I feel something going on with my heart, I push a button and it will record it. But as for my stomach, they found something. It was found in my blood tests(which hurt like crazy getting that needle in my arm!). It is called heliobacter pylory. Its a bacteria. It has caused an Ulcer in my stomach. They gave me a big white box of 2 weeks worth of pills. Four pills in the AM, and then Four more in the PM. Then I usually take about 2-3 acetaminophen almost every day cos I am in pain alot, so on average no, I have to take about 10 or 11 pills. I have to take these pills for Two weeks, and if the stomach problems do not stop in two weeks, I need to make an appointment. But I have to go back anyway in 4-6 weeks to get more blood tests just to check up on the situation. And because of my Ulcer and H. Pylory, I cannot eat acidic foods(mustard, banana peppers, oranges, tomatoes, etc.). So, no chili, no goulash(or however the heck you spell it, haha), I can’t have caffeine either, or Ibuprofen. If I eat that stuff or drink caffeine or take Uibuprofen, it could cause a bleeding ulcer, which is none too good. So I have to be careful. I just cannot wait for this to be gone, cos as soon as its over with, I am eating all the pizza, chili, goulash, banana Peppers, and mustard I want. And it won’t hurt me anymore. The thing I miss the most is Coffee. I love coffee. But I have to la off for two weeks, then slowly work my way into that stuff.

Soo….

                      Other than all that stuff things are okay. Good be better, but its been worse.

But, I am in second hour right now, so I need to go. bye.

               ~ Samm d/Massacre~<3