Well, I found out a couple days ago my dad has a new girlfriend. She’s a bit older than him, has a fourteen year old son, and a set of seventeen year old twins, one boy and one girl. I am getting the guilt trip from my sister because I stated that I don’t want to meet his new girlfriend yet. Dad told me that he has “someone very special” for me/us to meet…this weekend. Dude, I just found out about her a couple days ago, and after only knowing about her for a week, he expects me to jump up and down about meeting her.. I don’t think so. I am not saying “I never want to see her, I don’t want anything to do with her ever”. Not at all. It’s just, even though they as a “couple” might be ready for us to meet, me as his daughter, am not ready. But, I wish my sister would shut up about it, ” So what, are you just going to ignore every girlfriend he ever gets… What is your problem, you’re going to make him feel bad… just cos him and Brooke didn’t work out, doesn’t mean you have to say ’screw you’ to his next couple girlfriends, you always do this, boo hoo, shut up… You can’t avoid it forever, maybe you will end up liking her”. Okay, I never said I wouldn’t like her, and I never said that I never want to meet her, and I most definitely have not ignored his other girlfriends after him and Brooke split… as I recall there was Tammy, and I liked her.. until she dumped my dad for her ex-husband. Then there was Crazy Karla, I liked her. She let me drive her damn car for pete’s sake. She would talk to me like we were friends, but I knew very well that we weren’t really friends. She was sweet to me, gave me shoes, made me laugh… I got along with her almost as well as me and Brooke got along. But I guess those last and only two other relationships he’s had since Brooke do not count. Oh well.
Another thing I found out about my dad, is he is a bit more of a douche bag than I thought he was. He doesn’t want to buy my sister a two piece bathing suit because she “won’t look good in one”. She took that very hard because she struggles with her weight, and it pissed me off cos that’s my sister. As much as we fight and call each other names, she is still my sister. And no one has the right to insult her like that. He said “her body type isn’t ‘appropriate’ for a two piece, why not get a one piece”. The funny thing is, I was thinking of finally forgiving him for all the things he did and said in the past, to me and my siblings, but thats just another reminder that maybe he isn’t worth forgiving. Not saying my dad isn’t worth anything, its just, its insult after insult. And I am tired of it. And when you try talking to him about things like that, he gets very defensive, he ignores you, yells over you, and looks away. He also grits his teeth. At least I am not afraid of him anymore.
On a happier note, School is going great. I am having trouble in two classes, but I am working on them. Those two classes are economics, and grammar for writing. The English language is very complex, with so many rules, its ridiculous. What’s awesome is I have an A- in Government. Just barely passing Algebra Z(It’s a slower math class, for people who have trouble, like me) with a D. Passing Economics with a D. I have an A in Strategic Reading Class(My favourite class, cos its all about reading). But, things with school are going great. Another Happy note, I sort of met a guy. I met him on Facebook… I said I would never meet a guy on the Internet and consider anything with him, but I will try this out. We aren’t “dating” or anything like that at all yet, we are mainly getting to know each other. “Testing the waters”, if you will. He is very nice, he’s not my typical type, but maybe that’s a good thing since the last couple guys that were my “type” were failures and asses. He is a country boy, he loves working on trucks/cars, mudding, things like that. He is almost 17, which is okay cos I will be 16 in a month and 2 days. Who knows, maybe something could come of this, maybe not. We will just have to see what happens.
On a different note, they took my blood tests again a couple weeks ago and had to put me back on the medication cos the H. Pylori was still there, and higher than they’d like. So, I just have to finish the morning medication and I am done. They said that if it doesn’t work this time, they will have to do an endoscope. Which I don’t really want, but if necessary, then fine. Also, mom said that if they find my ulcer(s) they might cauterize them. So yeah.
And that’s all thats really happening. pce.
–Samm d’Massacre–
