come clean

Why do things have to be so difficult?..

This always happens. I go for the people that are bad for me, or older, or unavailable, or any combination of the three. I have decided not to go further with this guy in Caledonia… He is kind of boring. Very Quiet. I don’t like being the only one talking. But, I have been iterested in this guy for a while. But, even though I try and try to put it in the past and forget it… I seem to have trouble doing it. “It’s for the best, for both of you..” is what I tell myself. And it is, to just forget about it and move on, for the best… but I cannot get my head around the thought of actually doing it. Now, he doesn’t know that this is how I feel… but, I am pretty sure he can tell. Which doesn’t actually bother me. I probably won’t act on any of this.. but it just bugs me to keep this inside of me. It has been building up, and its time to release. No names. No hints. Just simple as this…

I like someone that I will never be able to have. [1]

I want to be with a person I cannot be with.

And as much as it sucks, I can live with that.

 

[1]- No eric, don’t flatter yourself. It’s not you.