July

I hate insomnia. I can never sleep, and when I do, I wake up several times during the night just tossing and turning. I can never get comfortable, it’s too hot, it’s too cold, My head hurts, my eyes are moving way too fast and my thoughts even faster. Maybe I stress too much, but it’s just, I am lucky if I can get to bed at 2A.M. But, it’s as if that’s the only time I have for myself to think. Think about what’s going on with mom, dad, wonder what’s going on with my friends, my grandparents, and wonder if I will do better my 11th grade year. Everything gets to me, and I cannot sleep. Then, when I am finally able to push all the thoughts to the back of my mind, I can’t get comfortable. It’s non-stop. Me and my mom almost have the same sleep pattern now. She’s never been able to sleep really, but for different reasons. My bed is a bitch, the couch feels as though there was cushion in it but someone stole it, the floor is super hard, and mom’s bed is occupied with her and doug. But, on to more things.

Ava will be three years old on July 12. Gosh, she’s so big. It seems like just yesterday she was born. Boy was that and experience. Haha. But, Jess is coming over for cake and ice cream on Saturday for Ava’s birthday. It should be fun.

Fourth of July…..hmm, what can I say, fireworks. Fireworks, food, and finding Five dollars on the side of the road, were the highlights of that day. But the best thing was Ava’s reaction to the fireworks, her face was brighter than the grand finale…Until she got bored and started to whine. Haha. But over all, it was decent. Aubri pinched my butt, it was weird. We(me, doug, brianna, dylan, montanna, and ava) had a good time. Mom, however, did not feel good. Poor mom.

But, I am going to make an attempt at sleep. Bye.