So, what’s new WordPress?
I haven’t written in quite some time. Allow me to just catch you up on my life so far.
I don’t go to school anymore, I had shoulder surgery in January due to a dislocated shoulder, I am still single, I don’t really talk to Nathan anymore, I’m back to being a hermit crab, I’m able to see clearly thanks to my new glasses, my grandma and grandpa h. know I smoke, and… that seems to pretty much be it.
I did hang out with Jess, Alex, and Chase last night though. I had fun. I’ve missed Jess alot. But, we got to see each other last night, so that’s good.
I had a thing going on with Brendon..but, just like the other times we tried, it did not work out. It never does, even though he promised things would be better. Oh well.
Well, thats pretty much all I have to type for now. See you in another few months. Ha.
-Samm d’Massacre
Goodbye summer, Hello Fall.
I’d like to say goodbye to the following:
Ice cream trucks, Hot days, Swimming pools, Sun Lotion, Flip Flops, Shorts, Going to bed in the a.m., Parties, Butterflies, Jump-roping, Camping, Quad Riding, Beaches, Naps at 1 in the afternoon, Laughter of children, Sprinklers, Slip and Slides, Fireworks, Green Trees, Iced Sweet Tea, Gardening, Canoing, Michigan’s Adventure, Garage Saling, and Night time carnivals.
I’d like to say hello to the following:
Brown and orange leaves, Halloween, Raking, Pumpkins, Apple Cider, Corn Mazes, Turkeys, Jackets, Chilly weather, School, Fresh starts, Waking up at 6a.m., Caramel Apples, Scarecrows, Bales of Hay, Choir Concerts, Report Cards, Thanksgiving, and Tractor Rides.
It won’t be easy saying goodbye to summer, but I have to do it. I start my Junior year of High School in 2 days. I have mixed emotions about it. I’m sort of happy, because I’m almost done with High School, and I can leave for lunch. But another part of me is asking myself, “How did time fly by so fast the first two years of High School?”. And its making me realise that as much as I don’t want o, I have to grow up. Sometimes, I wish Neverland was real, I would escape there and never have to grow up, or pay bills, or go to bed at a certain time, etc. But, this is the real world, there is no such Neverland, so I just have to grow up and accept it.
*Sigh*
This will be a good year. I can feel it. Wish me luck!
Samm d’Massacre
to my ex-boyfriend, christopher. I’m done with you and your childishness.
But I just think it could
Cause I haven’t tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two
I’ll keep your memory vague
So you won’t feel bad about me
I’ll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me
Now I’m thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won’t have to hurt anymore
Cause it’s really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear…
Now you’ve gone away
Don’t worry it’s ok
That you’re gone away
Further than yesterday
But you’ll never leave these scenes
My mind replays
Where in the world have you gone now?
Girls Night
Well, tonight I finally got out of the house for a change, and it wasn’t for babysitting. I babysat last night, earned 40 bucks, and then tonight me and Kayles had a “Girls Night”. We went shopping, then went to a Chinese Buffet, and came home and ordered a movie on Pay Per View. I had fun. Me and her haven’t hung out together for a while, sure I come over here sometimes, but usually one of us is on the computer, or I just sit and watch T.V. So, tonight we actually hung out. It was the first time riding in a car with her since the accident, but it went well. I sat in the backseat..Ha-Ha. She said, “You don’t trust me?”, and I told her not to take it personal, I don’t really sit in the front with ANYONE unless for some reason I am obligated to. Or unless its about midnight in Cedar because no one else is really driving. Yeah. Anyway, we had a lot of fun tonight. Bye.
Samm d’Massacre
weirdest thing
I did not even know that your saliva glands could get inflamed. OK, I will start a few days ago.
I noticed this bump on the inside of my left cheek. It was too high up to be a bite, so I showed it to my mom. Luckily I had a doctor’s appointment the very next day. I showed the doctor and he told me that it was a blocked/inflamed saliva gland, and apparently if it is left untreated, it produces these little torpedo shaped stones. So, it was a good thing that we told the doctor about it. The doctor put me on Augmentin and I have to take two a day with food. ut, I thought it was pretty weird, never heard of a blocked saliva gland before. He said it doesn’t happen often, but it does need to be treated when it happens.
Also, Balize had her kittens yesterday morning. Me and Kayles helped her deliver. She had 6 of them. So, new additions to Kayliegh’s household. That’s about it really though. Bye.
It was nothing.
You’v emoved on, and I will too. We don’t talk anymore, I guess I should have seen it coming, and in a sense, I did see it coming. But I told myself “Who cares if you get hurt, have fun now”. I had fun. And I got hurt, go figure. You have her, and I will just move and keep looking for “him”. The “right guy”. I already knew it was going to be over before it even began. You know, not technically together, but there’s something there…thats what we had. But, it was fun while it lasted. No bitterness. No anger. Nothing. Because I didn’t feel much for you. When I would go to bed at night, you weren’t the thought racing through my head, you weren’t the dream that made me want to sleep in, you weren’t the phone call that gave me shivers, you weren’t anything really. Call me mean, I don’t care really. But, you’re nothing to me, it was nothing to me. It did confuse me, but it didn’t do much for me. Everyone told me “don’t do it, he’ll cheat, he’ll lie, etc., he’s a jerk. He’s probably not over his ex”. That was true. I realise that I was the rebound girl, and you were the rebound guy. Ahh well, we had a good run. Pce.
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Alright so, I did my Teach Pre-school thing yesterday. It went awesome. I love those kids, they are the good ones. Ha-Ha. I did however come home with a punding headache that cause my head to feel 200 pounds if not more, from the other kids screaming and crying. But hey, that’s kids for you. As far as the rest of my school work, it is going very well too. My grades went up from all F’s to C’s, B’s, I do however have a D, but I am working hard on changing that for the better. But, as far as my “love life” goes, that is somewhat non-existent. I mean, I do have someone I am interested in, but, niether of us is ready for a relationship yet. He knows who he is, and my friends probably do too, I talk about him quite a bit, so, no need for names to be mentioned. But, he makes me smile like a dork, he makes me laugh so hard that I cry, he makes my bad days into good ones, with just one hug he makes me have the feeling I can do anything, talking to him makes me nervous, excited, happy, anxious, all at the same time. He gives me the butterflies I have never had before, you know, the ones that stay in the basket until he comes around, then they are all over the place like they just did crack or something. Ha-Ha. So, I will just stick around and see where exactly this leads I guess. Our computer is going to be gone shortly, so, I won’t be updating a whole lot anymore, I am not going to be on MSN or anything like that alot, so, if Sye or Jess wants to get ahold of me, your best bet is on here. Because this website is not blocked on the school’s computers. And thank goodness for that, cos I would have nothing to do at all! Ha-Ha. Well, thats it from me for at least a little while. Just, like I said, this site is anyone’s best bet if they want to get ahold of me. I will check it everyday. Maybe not write a post everyday, cos my life’s not that eventful, but I will check it. Pce guys. Love ya!
- Samm d’Massacre-
finished, over, done, “fin”.
Its done and over with. I couldn’t lie to myself anymore, but we both knew it was over a while ago. We knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I mean today, we both avoided each other, because we knew. We knew today was the day. And we weren’t mad, we weren’t bitter, but relieved. And strangely, happy. We are free, and you did make me feel a little bad about it, but I guess I deserve it. With the way I broke it off, and how I did say “I love you” when i didn’t really mean it the last few weeks. But, the point is that it is over with. You keep talking about having fun now, and me, I just feel bad, but at the same time, I will have fun myself. Ah well, we had a good run. Ha-Ha. But hey, we are always going to be friends, and I think that’s how we are actually meant to be. We are great as friends, but as a couple, we both know that will never be right. So, thanks for not being pissed at me.
Pce.
~Samm d’Massacre~
a night of fun
Hell yeas, Super Mario Party, Pizza, Mountain Dew, Jackass 2.5, and The Brothers Solomon. They all add up to one sweet ass night. Not to mention the awesome people in it. Jess, Kevin, Toby, and myself. Sure, I suck hardcore at Super Mario Party, but it was fun. Hey, at least I got up to second place once or twice. Ha-Ha. Kevin kept stealing my god-damn gold stars. Bastard. lol. No, But Jess, I think that Kevin is a winner. He’s no Kyle, that’s for sure. He’s very respectful, sweet, funny, and he seems caring.So, I am very extremely happy for you. But, I am so damn happy we are friends again, I cause a ‘god-damn call accident’. Ha-Ha. But, anytime you wanna hang out or talk or whatever, call me. Pce.
P.S.- Kevin, next time man, I will kill your ass in Super Mario Party!
almost lover
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
